Yes, it is definitely a good thing he is in counselling - as a matter of fact he is so open with the counsellor that I can hardly believe it. Even if he goes by himself, I never ask him what happened but he is usually pretty free to tell me just about everything that was discussed. He knows this is something he has to do right now, regardless of how long it takes.
I am also hopeful the doc will adjust his meds next time he sees him and perhaps that will help him to sort things out a little easier.
As for the S - he says he is working towards repairing things while still being here. I think he just wants the option of being able to remove himself from the pain if he feels he is not healing at the pace he thinks he should be. I also think, to some degree, it is because I have taken my power back and he perhaps sees that as some sort of a "throwing in the towel" from my side. However, I have reassured him that I want to work at resolving this as amicably as possible, regardless of the outcome. We are adults and should be able to handle ourselves accordingly.
Besides, the more rational we are with each other now, the more likely we are to stay together. And, even if we don't, we have both agreed we still want to be part of each other's lives as friends (gawd! I hate that saying "let's be friends") hoping it will never get to be "just friends"
I wish I could go to sleep and wake up a year from now when the pain is all over
Heywyre
M - 57 H - 65 1st A-bomb - Nov 27/02 2nd A-bomb - Dec 13/06 together 21 years *************************** Insanity is doing something over and over and expecting different results (Albert Einstein)
