I think the bad thing to staying so busy is that it is almost like I am running from the emotions. Like I am avoiding the inevitable.....I just keep thinking that I don't want to start my life over again. I want my H to see the changes in me and know that our family is worth something.

Sorry....I just need to get home and be with my kids. I am just so anxious and nervous to get this whole ride with H over. I just have fears in me. I really wish I had brought my bible with me. I do have my prayers with me. I will try to say them constantly in my head on the way home. Other than that, I will try to sleep. Anything to keep my mind from wandering.

Thanks for your support H!

"Be patient to persevere and wait for God to heal. Keep in mind that you are both imperfect people. Look to God as the source of all you want to see in your marriage and don't worry how it will happen...Leave it in His hands."