"Be patient to persevere and wait for God to heal. Keep in mind that you are both imperfect people. Look to God as the source of all you want to see in your marriage and don't worry how it will happen...Leave it in His hands."
Not too much to post. Other than the fact that I am irritated by my H at the moment.
He came over last night to visit with the kids. I don't know if he did this just because he had to come into town anyways to deposit his paycheck. He was only there for about an hour....yipeee! When he was there, he told me that he was going to come over today and pick up S5 and take him to lunch and maybe a movie. Then he was going to bring him back to the house for his nap. He would then come back after I got home from work and my MC appointment.
Well, let's just say that it is 1:45 and he still hasn't shown up at the house. I asked my mom and she said that he wasn't there yet. I refuse to call him because I want him to be the one to realize that he is screwing up and I want him to be the one to make contact to apologize. Why can't he realize that he is choosing this hootchie momma over his own kids????? I don't care if he is just sleeping but he should be up by now. He didn't have to work last night and doesn't have to work tonight either.
I don't know what to do at this point. I just want to shake him and tell him to make up his freaking mind...does he want her or does he want his family and M?!?!? I know that I won't but I sure would love to.
"Be patient to persevere and wait for God to heal. Keep in mind that you are both imperfect people. Look to God as the source of all you want to see in your marriage and don't worry how it will happen...Leave it in His hands."
I am not mad at him for my sake. I am just so tired of his failed promises to Q. I am sitting here now and crying just thinking about it. He is killing his R with his kids...what little R he has with them.
"Be patient to persevere and wait for God to heal. Keep in mind that you are both imperfect people. Look to God as the source of all you want to see in your marriage and don't worry how it will happen...Leave it in His hands."
Karla is doing the same thing. There is nothing either one of us can do to change that or stop it. All we can do is be there for our kids. He will be the one that has to answer to the kids for his actions.
Ben 32 STBXW 29 3 kids (D1,S4,SD8) (1 dog 5months) Status: Fighting for the Kids.
"The only thing we know about future developments is that they will develope."
Do I say anything to him about it if he shows up tonight? Do you think it will do any good?
I have continued to tell him ILY. That is one thing that I can't cut out. We both slacked off in that regards. I think that is one of the reasons that he ventured off. I asked him last night if it bothered him that I tell him ILY and he said "No, that is fine." But he said it while walking out the door. Do I believe him? Do you have any insight into whether he is bothered by it or does he need to hear it? Not that I am going to stop saying it unless he asks me to.
"Be patient to persevere and wait for God to heal. Keep in mind that you are both imperfect people. Look to God as the source of all you want to see in your marriage and don't worry how it will happen...Leave it in His hands."
We honestly never talk about it. I do not ask and he does not tell. I told him if he wanted to talk about anything that I was here to listen.
It might not hurt but becareful how you say it. Do not say it with a blamming attitude. Maybe mention that Q misses him and wants to spend more time with him...
Ben 32 STBXW 29 3 kids (D1,S4,SD8) (1 dog 5months) Status: Fighting for the Kids.
"The only thing we know about future developments is that they will develope."
I think I am going to just hold off on contacting him. I want him to realize what he has done and be the one to apologize. I am heading to MC in a few but will try to steer clear of my cell for a while. I just think it is more important for him to realize what he is doing than for me to point it out. That may just come acrossed as the controlling person that I am trying to destroy in myself.
"Be patient to persevere and wait for God to heal. Keep in mind that you are both imperfect people. Look to God as the source of all you want to see in your marriage and don't worry how it will happen...Leave it in His hands."
I think I am going to just hold off on contacting him. I want him to realize what he has done and be the one to apologize. I am heading to MC in a few but will try to steer clear of my cell for a while. I just think it is more important for him to realize what he is doing than for me to point it out. That may just come acrossed as the controlling person that I am trying to destroy in myself.
"Be patient to persevere and wait for God to heal. Keep in mind that you are both imperfect people. Look to God as the source of all you want to see in your marriage and don't worry how it will happen...Leave it in His hands."
