Nothing too exciting to report about the current sitch. H came over last night for about an hour or so and seemed to enjoy himself. I was sitting on the couch with our 3 month old and our D3 was sitting next to me. He sat down on the floor right infront of D3 and was playing with her and talking to me about the basketball game that he had gone too. He was laughing with the kids and we seemed to be like the family we used to be but happier. He helped me get D3 to bed and then was heading out the door. I walked him out and before I knew it, I said "Come home, please." He just kind of stared off into space for a minute and then said "Not right now. I am still trying to figure some things out." I told him that I had to ask and he said that he knew. I quickly changed the subject to him needing a winter coat. He didn't seem angry that I said it and I felt good about the answer. It made my night a little easier. I really don't know if that was his way of telling me no politely or if maybe he really is thinking of coming home and just needs to continue seeing progress in us. (remember, he is currently living with OW) I don't know. I am just taking the positive that he didn't say "Heck No!"

I also told him that I was going to go back to MC and that he was welcome to come. It didn't mean that he had to come but he is more than welcome. He said ok. So maybe in a few weeks he will decide that he wants to join me.

Baby steps...I have to keep thinking baby steps. I also have to go back to the phrase "Be patient and do not rush perseverence."

"Be patient to persevere and wait for God to heal. Keep in mind that you are both imperfect people. Look to God as the source of all you want to see in your marriage and don't worry how it will happen...Leave it in His hands."