thanks for the reply - I have to stop this pity party too, all its doing is dragging me down. He can stay there if he wants but I think once I decide not to go there, he will stop beating himself up too and we can move on - together!

Thanks again

Heywyre

M - 57
H - 65
1st A-bomb - Nov 27/02
2nd A-bomb - Dec 13/06
together 21 years
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Insanity is doing something over and over and expecting different results (Albert Einstein)