I try to think like that but sometimes it seems almost impossible. I know when I got my first D (many moons ago) I was devastated. I was determined not to be like his parents, my parents etc. etc. I put so much pressure on myself to be the perfect wife, mother, woman, employee - you get the idea - that I made myself crazy. I prayed and prayed - please bring him back dear God, make him see his ways and come back - he never did. I cried myself to sleep for months on end. Then one day I said, enough is enough GAL!!! and I did. All of a sudden I was attractive to him - but he never did come back and I was well on my way to being a new me. It was a blessing in disguise, I just didn't know it at the time. Once I stopped the pity party I was well on my way and realized what a real favour he did for me. Then the prayers changed - it became "my life is in your hands - do what you think is best for me" and believe it or not, the next day I met my current H. As much as I think God, at this point, has a twisted sense of humour, I still think my current H is the best thing that ever happened to me and he (God) is just testing me to see if I really do know what (unconditional) love is. He is a good man/person, he just lost his way and we drifted - we need to concentrate on getting that back and I think we are on our way.
Heywyre
M - 57 H - 65 1st A-bomb - Nov 27/02 2nd A-bomb - Dec 13/06 together 21 years *************************** Insanity is doing something over and over and expecting different results (Albert Einstein)
