Itsy, I don't know your situation, I just wanted to say that I have lifted you up in prayer after reading this post. I pray that you have found some peace in the quiet hours of the morning. Sounds like things have not been good for you for quite some time.
I'm sorry you are losing so much. But I'm glad that you're finding yourself able to move on. It sounds like there is a lot of healing that needs to take place in your family. I will pray for that as well.
God promises that He has plans for us. Plans to prosper us and not harm us. That He plans to give us hope and a future. These are His words. Claim them for yourself. Here's a wonderful quote I found a month or so ago, I think it may be something that brings you some hope and/or peace.
Quote: ...if you think of your story as an epic- a grand, ambitious journey for a noble cause-you recognize that everything before the intermission was the setup, the necessary series of events to precede the triumphant finale. Everything in the first half- the successes as well as the failures, the good decisions and the lousy ones-prepares you for something better....Half time lets you revise the second half of your story so that it turns out better- so that it aligns itself with the story God implanted on your soul. He has created a grand narrative for you to live out and is determined to prevent you from writing a smaller, less significant part than the one he has already written.
Keep looking up. I'll check in when I'm able.
Blessings,
Bill
"Don't tell me the sky is the limit when there are footprints on the moon."
