No...I think that what is bothering me is just the plain obvious...I need to walk away. I don't need him, but chose to love him. With his verbal abuse of my cat, with whom he never thought twice about; brought up all the reasons why I recovered so quickly after the D...I could justify my need to start over.
I allowed myself one year to shake the bitterness and sad feelings from the R, before I put myself back on the market again - sort of brushing off the dirt...then he reappears, so I get excited, only to find, he hasn't changed that much.
I'm pretty good with investments in the market and mutual funds...but I guess I'm wary of investing in him again, to go down the same road ...
