Ya know 1210, we can only control us.

Is the debate raging within you a need for that companionship again or is it pure longing?

There is a comfort in the known and the unknown is uncomfortable. Is it the fact that you are comfortable with him? Or, you WERE comfortable with him?

After 11 months you have not found someone that struck a chord with you or were you just not looking?

I feel like you are reaching for him b/c he is what you KNOW! Is there fear to step into the unknown?

You strength is obvious on this board. Yet, it seems to me that you are fighting. The battle between your head and your heart has begun.

Just my .02 I could be way off base and I'm getting tired. Maybe my mind is wandering and maybe I should read my own post to you?!?!

I hope you can get some sleep tonight. take care of YOU!!!

M-35 going on 15
D-8
S- 3 yrs
ex-CL(w)- 30

D over one year

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