Ugh! Why did I just do that??? I went and looked up my H's myspace page and saw how he was telling 22 yo OW "I love you..." blah...blah... It hurts to see that and I know just about everyone here can relate to that feeling. I promised myself that I would not go to that page, but I did it anyway. I guess for some reason I thought I would see that he was not with her anymore. It's just so hard to believe that he's telling this 22 yo immature girl that he loves her, when he has told me before (when he had talked about reconciling back in October 06) that she was really immature and "more trouble than she is worth" and "she is nothing like you" and that "you are thinking we are more than we are."

I was reading some of Hopefloat's latest thread postings where she was talking about H's likely depression and thinking it sounded so much like my situation. My H told me at Christmas (the day he also told me to move on b/c he was tired of the back and forth stuff and that he probably needed closure) that he couldn't handle a serious R with anyone and yet he is telling OW that he loves her. It's like watching high schoolers pass notes in class when you see that stuff on Myspace. I don't get it?! He talks about wanting to be a deep person and reads all of these books on that topic and yet he is picking his time to be w/ this "girl?" Doesn't that go against what he is trying to do? I feel like he has turned into this person that I no longer know anymore and that makes me more sad than anything.

I just needed to vent and to put this out there that I will not ever go back and look at his Myspace page again - it does not help and only hurts.

Any words of encouragement or anything at all would be great!


Laura