Hi Unbroken -

It was so nice for you to check-in w/ me. I haven't been as active lately b/c I've been trying to do things to keep me occupied (i.e. working out, etc.) and I've been praying like crazy! Prayer and exercise seem to be the only 2 things that can keep me positive and focused on better things. I used to say TV and movies would do that, but there always seems to be something that comes up that reminds me of something stressful, sad, or something I miss in regards to my R w/ H.

Even though I planned to go dark, I've had to contact my H twice since he told me not to contact him; it was regarding the mail that I've been getting regarding his car loan. Basically he had to reply quickly to the two letters to prevent from being charged for something he shouldn't have to be charged for. Ugh! In a way, I've tried to think of it as a positive b/c I was able to show H that I could be to the point, nice and then let him go (from the texting) and that I didn't try to continue the conversation after notifying him of the letters. He was nice and asked me how I was doing and I just replied, "good, keeping busy " and asked him as well and he said "good." That was it, but pleasant. I hope that he will calm down from his last phone conversation w/ me (at Christmas) that said that he was going to pursue a D as soon as he had the money. My hope is too that he reacted b/c he was feeling his own guilt and pressure. Now that I'm not talking to him weekly, he can't really blame me for that, so he will have to look to something else, and hopefully he will begin to see how unreal his R is w/ OW.

I'll have to check out your threads on how you are doing and reply over there.


Laura