One other thing that I realized that I left out, which I think might be kind of a big deal (or a big deal to H).

We've been at this place for the last two months of texting each other, but not going past that point. Of course, I have tons of people try to give me suggestions, but I try not to talk to others about it too much. One thing a friend was saying was that it would be nice to try to move past the current status of just texting neutral stuff back and forth. On Christmas Day, I told him that I had a present for him and that's when he kind of blew up and asked me if I was seeing anyone. He said later on in our long conversation that it made him feel like crap that I had bought him something and that he didn't have the money to really buy me something and also that he still couldn't promise me anything. I think that maybe that was sort of the spark to the fuse that caused his blow up.... I thought that I was trying to test the waters and move another step up, but I guess that must have been like a 100 steps up...

Laura