You don't get to post about some little something like that, and run away. I think the world would be better if all women had to wear magnifying glasses so they could actually see the markings on the ruler better.
Notice I did not say yardstick.
Hey, I had to come find your thread. You pop in and out at times but then I don't see your base camp. Things seem to be going at mlc pace for you. Wanting answers, and getting the infinite loop instead.
But I am glad to see you exploring your own issues during this time. Emotions indeed. Isn't it odd how we grow up learning to control them, and then one day, they totally own us. Glad to see you getting good feedback from COG and others, but sorry I got distracted by all the women virtually running around in nothing but their "new shoes". Seriously, about the emotions. The one we confront the most is fear. It seems to be the first to consume us, and at the times we think we have begun to manage it, we get to meet Mr.Hurtlikehell.
We have been lied to in any number of ways, lost our dreams, questioned our being, and more. This leads us at some point to a moment of extreme sobriety ... anger.
Don't fear the anger. It leads us past the hurt. One day, it may even open a door to forgiveness. But for now, we just need to accept it as part of our journey we did not know we were destined to take, and were never prepared for.
There are books out there sharing that anger is the gatekeeper emotion, controlling all other roads. We have to feel it totally to get past it, to forgive. Or we may allow it to direct us to love ourself first and foremost. As an emotion, it is as unpredictable as the alien your life. You can not control the alien. You can not control the anger, if you want to become at peace with it. When we try to push it down and tell ourselves we can just get over it, we are lieing to ourself. We need to explore what it is we are really angry about and come to peace with that.
When I was a teen and working a minimum skill job I worked for a wise person, who was not a successful business man. But he told me a couple good things. One was never let another person get a shot at your job. This, as he let me go for taking off on a Friday night for the high school dance. The other good lesson was when we are angry at someone like our parents, we are often fooled. When we really consider what we are angry about, we often discover we are angry with ourself. Sometimes it is for knowing we broke a rule. Sometimes it is because we allowed ourselves to be fooled and hurt.
When we discover the real source of our anger, and come to peace with it, we are freed from our anger. The best part is, next time we find ourself getting angry, we more quickly seek the true reason and let it go.
I hope you continue to find your peace. You deserve it. You look happy in the newer pics on thatspace. Yes, hot hot hot!!! So why let negative emotions hold you back. Lead by example. Your kids will see your growth, and peace, and want it for themselves. Think how much better prepared you are now to teach them these things. And I do believe one day when your H has begun to find a way to face his demons, he will see how you have grown. He will be amazed, when his eyes are wide open. This does take more time than you sometimes want to wait, but will be worth it ... don't ya think? Guess that is why we walk around chanting ... Patience Patience Patience. In the mean time you are welcome to make fun of my ... depth perception all you want.
Of course posting more of your hot pics on the web is likely to keep affecting my depth perception!!!!!
