Nicola- Glad you got all that natural emotional response out of you and on paper (or whatever).
Your H is acting strange. Maybe he's "trying" or maybe he's involved with an ow. I'm searching for some advice to give that doesn't involved the standard, "focus on yourself, drop the rope, let go of control...blah, blah, blah."
I just can't think of a darn thing. So I'll just let you know that I'm keeping track of your thread and thinking of you along your journey.
