Nicola ~ I also read your whole post to the end and I think alot of us probably feel the same way you do. It is hard not to think that in some way shape or form we have failed our children by not giving him a happy home with two happy parents. Unfortunately it isn't all up to us. We do what we can with what we are given.
You are making their childhood different than yours by being the terrific mother you are. You are there for them when they need you. You are involved in their lives. You show them the unconditional love a child deserves. They will never ever forget how you were during this difficult time in all their lives.
Don't ever doubt yourself Nicola ~ You are awesome in so many different ways and your kids know this as well or better than anyone does.
Much Love!
Christy M: 31 H: 33 Married ~ 13 years S12 S8 Bomb 10/05 supposedly ended A 2nd bomb 12/30/05 Separated 01/06 I filed 6/12/07 ~ new ow 3wks after moving out http://www.divorcebusting.com/forums/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=1094955&page=0#Post1094955