Still on the journey 2

[princess_nic]

Angelica - I read your news on YR's thread ~ hurray! I do so hope that things turn out the way you would like. As you say, however, either way, you are getting better all the time.

COG - Yes, I agree that I have to be aware of my motivations before making any major decisions; I do not want to do things for the wrong reasons. Thank you for your thoughts.

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I saw H today - I think I will be seeing him every day till Tuesday. He did come to hang out with the kids for an hour; they just stayed here b/c S5 wanted to play w/ his new trains. He opened his presents--this time, I sat on the other side of the room, and he actually got up, walked over, and kissed me "thank you"! Will wonders never cease? I ordered pizza for me and the kids, and he said he was sorry he couldn't eat it b/c of his stomach (although he was still going out!). He did admit to drinking a bottle of wine last night, which he said probably wasn't a good idea. *sigh* I made myself scarce most of the time he was here; I don't like opening myself up to being hurt, and I figure he can seek me out if he wants to.

I got my schedule for next semester, and it is GREAT! I can't believe how lucky I am; maybe God had mercy on me b/c my last schedule was so sucky. Last semester, I taught till 6 PM three days a week, and started at 8 AM on the fourth day. This time, I have Fridays off (marking day); I don't teach after four any day, and I only have one 8 AM start! This means that the day I finish at four, D10 has piano, so my mum will pick her up and take her anyway, but H won't ever have to pick up the kids. My mum will also help me out the one day I start early. H will still have the kids on Thursday evenings so I can go back to choir. Ah, it will be nice not to see H every Monday, Tues, Thurs and Sat. Now it'll just be Mon (v. brief), Thurs and Sat (brief also).

He does seem to be making itsy bitsy steps forward, but I just don't know anymore--I'm not putting any stock in it.