Still on the journey 2

[COG]

Nic,

Truthfully, if we didn't have children together, I would have no reason to even consider a reconciliation.

I can relate to that. D is very hard on kids, and as a parent, the last thing our nature wants to do is hurt them. It's just so darned complicated, especially for people with integrity. Maybe we need more laws requiring people to have college degree's in M, before actually being allowed to be M. Something to save us from ourselves.

I am still considering filing myself in Jan. We had agreed to wait till March, but I'm sick of waiting.

Well, maybe just check yourself. If you want to file in Jan instead of March just to give him a punch, then I would say that's not nice. However, if that's what's best for YOU, and your not just being spiteful, then I can understand that.

I deserve so much better than this.

Yes you do, and I'm positive that there's a purpose for our struggle.

I'm sorry things don't seem to be working out for you. But, I'm so happy to see you on your feet, moving forward, and growing spiritually. You are a beautiful person and I'm very proud of you. Your H is weak and flawed just like many people on this earth. I think we're called to love one another, but maybe not necessarily give our lives for someone that does'nt care. Hang in there Nic.

God Bless,

COG