Thank you very much for writing, Try, and Happy New Year to everyone
It's interesting to hear your take on anger coming from the injustice of being trapped between not getting what you need and not being able to get it without going against your morals. I can definitely see some of that coming from my wife. She does have a very strong moral center, though she's been riding the edges for a while.
You are not the first to suggest showing my sexual side, leaving suggestive messages, etc. The crazy thing is that she's trying really hard to move on. She gets "mad" (I'm not sure if it's real or not) if I do anything that suggests we have a relationship.
But, I've got to say, if she were to consider getting back together, she would really need to feel more confidence in our potential sex life. And that has as much to do with attraction and showing desire as in being able to go through with the physical act.
So I'm considering pushing in this direction again, as long as I can keep strong in the midst of it ... when I allow myself to feel the attraction, I tend to get sucked into feeling desperate, and that's bad. Gotta get more comfortable being a sexual man, I guess.
