Thank you MJ for trying to give my wife a voice here. If I'm going to succeed, I need that reality check.
For the record, though my wife is mad at the word, she saves it mostly for me. To others, she is happy and free.
About my increased sex drive, I'd say it's part self esteem, and part not getting any, and NONE her being mean. The way she's treated me has significantly messed up my sex drive. I've tried many many times to get her into the sack and she's stiff armed me and I've given up.
But from her POV, you're probably right. She thinks I never initiated sex. And she may think I only want her now because I can't have her.
