Today I will go with my new approach. I will call the older kids cell phones to catch up with them when they get home from school and at bedtime. I will be able to talk to the younger ones as well, thus eliminating the phone issue..., I think.
I work 8AM to 11PM today. Busy day and a lot to get done. So my mind will be elsewhere, hopefully. This is the Wednesday she goes to see her C. I'm always anxious on these IC days. Her C has proven to not be a fan of me or us. W swears that C is not against us. I asked during one of the last blowouts. I said I wouldn't be so worried about the C, except I know she is no fan of mine. W said that's not true. I said, well I know she is no fan of us. W said that's not true, I said okay, I would be more relaxed about it if I knew YOU were not against us. W said, I'm not against us. At that point I didn't know what to say so I dropped it and we talked about other things.
W is still really sick. I think she is going to have to go back to the doc, just not getting better.
I got home around 1130PM last night and she was up talking on the phone with a friend. She came downstairs and fixed a plate of food for me, then sat and talked while I ate. That's a babystep. She is starting to be comfortable around me. I know that by leaving the R alone, she is not as anxious around me and is more willing to do things with me.
Leaving the R alone is the key. Doing that makes it easy for her to hang out with me, the more time we can spend together stress free, the better connection we can make. That connection/intimacy is going to turn things around.
