heywyre,
happy new year to you as well.

I get knocked down but then I get up. I gotta wonder about my sanity sometimes, we all do. Wanting when not wanted? Craziness.

I did real well after the rough morning/afternoon. Had a great night with kiddies and in-laws. I decided last night that its a new year, a new season and a new me. I make decent money. I look pretty good. I have a lot going for me. If necessary, I could live with out her. I don't want to and I will do my DB'ing ever to turn this around.

Funny thing last night. Her sister (divorced in the last year) said, in front of everyone, "my friend paid you a great compliment yesterday, she said that I should have been the one to marry you, her husband agreed, they said what a great guy you are and I was late to the dance on that one". I asked what late to the dance means, and she said that she once told her friend that my W had asked her what she thought about me, just prior to us starting to date, SIL told wife, if you don't go out with him, I will. Her friends hubby had heard that story and told her, if that conversation ever happens again about another guy, to tell whoever is asking, 'I think its a bad idea, let me go out with him first to test the waters'.

Everybody got a good laugh and it sure made me feel a lot better.

To further complicate things yesterday, W came home after my last post, after dropping D's off, asked where S14 was, I told her he was at the store with his buddies and was running late, he called and said he would be about 30 minutes longer than anticipated.

She asks if I want to ML, since no one is around?!?!

Yes..., I am confused by her. Yes, I am going to work on detaching further so her confusion doesn't become my confusion and I can keep my emotions level so I can be a great dad to my kids and friend to her while she figures out what she wants.