I have been sick and have just caught up with you. I'm sorry you've had a tough time, esp with your car. Of course it's normal to be angry that you have to deal with that alone. I feel the same way when something happens that I feel I should have help with (e.g. two vomitting children). The problem is that what "should be" isn't what "is." In the moment, that's hard to remember, but you did, and that's what matters.
B, you are under a lot of stress. I know you're happy that your H is coming home, but there are still a lot of unknowns: how will it work out, how will you renew your marriage, you'll have to get to know each other again, will you really be able to forgive, you won't be able to make all the decisions anymore, etc. Now and then, the stress will lead to a mini-breakdown. Please be aware that you are in a tough situation and be kind to yourself.
I get the feeling that you feel like you should be happy all the time now b/c your M is healing, but that's not realistic. Yes, you are in a better place than you were a year ago, but you are still healING, not healED. Give yourself some space to be sad, to be angry, to be afraid...it's OKAY! You may be an amazing woman, but you are still human, after all!
Love, Nicola
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