Sorry for the mini-hijack coming, BND.
Angelica, I am fascinated with your sitch because I think you are a few months ahead of me on a similar journey. Check up on my thread when you have a chance, and let me know what you see. Meanwhile, I hope you will check in with us on the details of what has been going on in your sitch on your own thread, maybe weekly if you can? I know you are probably busy! But I think it will be so helpful to understand (and also for you, to document!) this phase of this most challenging journey. And we will support you too I am quite sure you still have some time to put in on this path. Yippee, huh?

PositivelyListening
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When one door of happiness closes, another one opens; but often we look so long at the closed door that we do not see the one which has been opened for us. - Helen Keller