Maybe it is because the kids finally went back to school and I am able to get some chores done.
I went to the VS sale and had some fun there.I took some pics with my cell phone from the fitting room and sent them to my Husband. (regular clothes not lingerie)! He told me he liked all of the outfits I picked out and that is how I should dress more often.
Yesterday I got my haircut again and had some highlights put in. My Beloved put extra money into my account to pay for these things and told me to keep buying myself nice things because I deserved them.
He also told me that when he is home he wants to take me shopping and help me choose my clothes. This is coming from a man who always hated the malls and shopping. I like this part of him. I feel like he is finally trying to make me happy and his selfishness from MLC is slowly waning.
I am enjoying hearing all of the niceties that were lacking for so long. I am actually starting to feel pretty again and not like the person he just settled for.
I am still going into this with eyes wide open and I am very cautious. The more he is trying, the easier it becomes to let down my guard. But I also know this will take time.
In another week, the big kids return to school and I will then be alone with the little ones for a short while longer. I really do hate being alone and the countdown until my Husband's return seems to be taking forever.
BUT at least there is now a countdown and for that I am very grateful.
MIL left a message asking me how my Christmas was and wishing me a Happy New Year. I did not return her call. I want 2007 to be a year of new beginings and not have her included in my life.
This has nothing to do with forgivness, but rather self preservation. I am eliminating the dross from my life and unfortunately the damage and the chaos she helped to create have left a huge scar.
I have not heard from my Mother for about 3 months. She did not acknowledge the Christmas gifts or Birthday present I sent her.
Oh well......moving forwards is always hard, but it is better then taking steps backwards.
There can be no testimony without a test. I am praying to go through this test and come out the other end with a new and better marriage then before.
