One step at a time.........

[brandnewday]

As I sit here and drink my 2nd glass of amazing Riesling, I am thinking about my journey and where I was 3 years ago, 2 years ago and even just last year.

This time last year I was waiting for the papers to be served to me. I was having major anxiety and I was barely able to function.

This time last year my H had been gone for many months to pursue his happiness 3000 miles away and the kids and I were left alone to fend for ourselves, and we survived!!

My D6 was in the hospital and I was driving back and forth 2 hours each day and juggling the rest of the kids. But I managed and I overcame that ordeal and Christmas came and went and we were OK.

Last year at this time I never would have believed it if someone had told me that I would be hearing I love You's from my Husband again.

I never would have believed that he would want to be home with me and start over and rebuild our relationship. I was so sure that we would be Divorced by the end of 2006.

So many things have happened this past year, and most of them have been hard but good learning experiences for me.
I have had to grow up and I have had to learn how to be independent.

I think I know what I want out of life now and although I know I want my marriage, I am not afraid to be alone anymore. My priorities have changes and the rose colored glasses have come off. I see so much clearer now and sometimes that is a little scarey.

I am trying so hard to have a sense of humor about my Husband spending Christmas with his Mommy and her sisters.
He really does not like any of them and is already complaining and he hasn't even arrived there yet.

He was supposed to leave tonight, but has pushed it back and will now be leaving Saturday night. He told me today how much he wished he could be here with us and that he was feeling really down today.

So I guess all of these things are positive and the end of this journey will be here soon and I will be starting another one, with my Beloved.

Sorry if I am rambling on and on, the wine is getting to me tonight and I am feeling a little nostalgic.
I have almost a half a bottle left if anyone would like to join me