Matilda and a good 07 to you! ((())) I have also been off the boards, but a member for , well way to long. Have been on and off MLC and Piecing myself.
Lots of same feelings for myself M:27 yrs. D22, S20 H: was WAS in long term A , H back home about 1 yr. But not really.
We also never went to MC, my H also very silent about the A, silent about what went wrong in our M to lead up to the A, and in my case uses the excuse of feeling the guilt and can't talk about it.
What struck me in your sitch also was the PMA I thought I had gained when H was not at home, but seems to crash on that never endning roller coaster I call piecing. Piecing still on my part.
Not sure about you, but days I feel the over vigilance about "watching him", and not letting my guard down are what is so very hard. The silence certainly does not help either.
Do you see a C yourself? In my case it does, to realize this white knight will never come riding back to me professing his unending love, but the reality of piecing ourselves is definitely harder now.
I love your 07 goals--reminds me that I promised myself to start my own. I think I will start small as usual and like you continue to start on my goals for MYself.
One goal is to continue here on these boards for the support of many strong friends. And to share and listen if you care to.
