We had a quiet New Years here at home. It was actually delightful.
On Monday I had this crazy idea to invite a couple friends over for dinner. It was a lot of work and I was really doing it to see how the one friend reacted around H with me there and to see how H acted around her. This is the new friend that H has been talking to way too much in my opinion. All seems ok on the surface, but I found a boarding pass for a plane trip that showed me he went back to our house other than back to the school (he's in training for his job and told me he had to be back there on the 26th. It's in a different state). Strange. It was a 12 hour period unaccounted for. Driving me crazy, but I can't ask since I found the boarding pass by snooping. Sure makes me question his trustworthiness. Maybe he was just uncomfortable being around all my family due to the previous talk of D, etc.
However, I am not going to dwell on the trust issue at this time (for a change). He'll be gone for 2 weeks to finish the training. A good time for me to work on my self improvement plan! I feel like this time I will succeed because I want to feel better about myself instead of trying to change just to please H.
