brava, thanks for checking in with me. I related with what you said about being afraid that my H would think I was now being mean by not reaching out. But when I stop and think about that, why on earth should I care if I appear mean? He certainly isn't undeserving of that. Trying to keep it all in perspective...thanks for your support.
Most of us really marry only once. First love endures, even unto our dying day. And we never really divorce.