What is the timeline for your situation? I am feeling much the same as you at times. I have been at this MLC thing for 2 years and 9 months. Separated for 16 months. I still have great hope for a reconciliation later on down the road.
The difference in my situation is that husband has a bandaid OW and has not yet realized what he has done. Last year, H was here for Christmas eve and Christmas day. This was before OW (who was a close friend of ours). The fact that he will not be spending any time with me is bothering me alot. But I have tried to tell myself that he will not have the kind of Christmas that he had last year. He will have a little bit with OW but not with her family (he is not welcome there, OW's family are mad at her for losing her H) and a little bit with his brother, nephew, and our Ss.
I know in my heart that he will miss spending time with me and I will do nothing to allow him to speak with me or see me on that day if possible. It is time our Hs really get a taste of life without us. We are the prize. They must earn the prize.
Try to enjoy the holidays and when you think of what you are missing tell yourself that he is missing more. We are surrounded by people who love us.
Everything happens for a reason, maybe Dad needs to find that it isn't better out there, he needs to realize how good he had it here. Maybe he will find God and that is the most important thing when he finds Him he will know he is supposed to come home.
