Hope, Your H still can come out of this. BUT in the meantime, you need to act as though he won't. That's what works for me. I agree with Always, that going dark is for you not for H. If in the meantime that does something to knock him over the head, great. But going dark is so you can regain your focus on you and remove yourself from that dark world.
The holidays are so hard. You just have to get through teh next few weeks, then look at 2007 as a new opportunity for a new life. Sucks that your H didn't call you about the package. That's just awful. He probably is too confused to do anything. So, just let it be.
You seem like an amazing person. ANd according to Lissett, you're beautiful as well. Your H will wake up one of these days to find that some great guy snached you up.
I understand your concerns about the fact that you moved away, but it's what you had to do. And you have to believe that you were forced in that directin for a reason. You are meant to be wehre you are today. ANd one day it will become clear why.
We all know what you're going through. Hang in there.
