Thanks for the second pairs of eyes onto my situation. I appreciate what you said. It's good to know that I shouldn't give up all hope on this. I guess stepping back and letting him soak in the horror of his actions is in order now. I have to keep reminding myself that the person I truly miss is not who H is right now. That is KEY. I constantly say it over in my head as a reality check.
I will keep pushing forward into the unknown (scary) and pray. I carry a little trinket around with me all the time. It says: Things happen for a reason. Just believe. Good words to live by.
Hugs all around. Thank you for the support.
Most of us really marry only once. First love endures, even unto our dying day. And we never really divorce.