FS, What is the status of your R sith your W? Are you still living together? Are you separated? Is she giving you any hopeful signs that reconciliation is possible? Is she actually seeing the OM. or just thinking of him?
It sounds like you are acknowledging the mistakes that you've made, and are willing to work on self-improvement.
Concerned_Listener
CL 53 W 54 M 20 yrs. 03'-09' Separation + Old Patterns + GAL 10-14' Piecing
"The Master allows things to happen. She shapes events as they come."