actually i had been telling him about this problem on and off for the last few years, just that i couldn't pin point why. today i finally am able to pin point so specifically.
i think i am opting out. i don't have the heart to spend the rest of my life with him anymore. i know i am the woman jerk here.
my H is so proud, recently whenever we had friction, he would never coax me a little, i am always the one to apologise. there was once he was so pissed with me that he emailed me to say that he thinks he has done his best, he can't do anything more to please me. he said he wishes me good luck if i want to find a better man. he frequently tells me he thinks i can't find someone who would treat me better than him, i always shake my head secretly at this.
he said he won't marry again if i leave him, he is tired of pleasing women and getting nothing in return. so, this is his attitude. i think i deserve better. we had a great time before, so maybe that's it, end of our fate to be with each other. i really do not have the interest to go counselling with him. of course, there are still 4 weeks to go if he want to surprise me. i don't think i'll do anything more, i'll just wait for my OM to come back.
