i did have a talk to him about our problem, he was immediately hurt. he isn't doing anything as i could see, like trying to find out more in forum etc. he just carries on with what he is doing, he didn't even sense that a red light is blinking.
i can't tell him straight about my OM, but i had dropped big hints. my H actually knows that i am meeting a guy friend almost every night for chess (which is true), i came back after midnight almost everyday for the past one month, i even told H that i would be going on trips long and short with my friends in the coming future.
i asked my H why is he letting me do everything i want. he said he can't control me, that would result in in resentment, he said he has no choice. he said is pathetic but what can he do? i personally too do not know what he can do to improve things. he wants to take me to places, i have no interest to go with him, but i would go just to put on a show, just because i am his wife.
i think right now i am too infatuated with my OM. i hope that time would cool me down, but i am afraid the more forbidden a relationship is, the stronger is the flame. OM said he knows he is in deep trouble, but he feels that he can't turn back from the way he feels. OM knows that if he hasn't fallen so deeply, he wouldn't bring me so much trouble.
i am sorry i am babbling, i am in mini depression because OM is away for a few weeks. i will pick myself up and start to work. could you drop me a post once in a while, it really helps.
