Thanks for dropping by Sol. Well, ole Whatis almost blew it last night. Dinner was wonderful, W and I shared a lobster (my D9 says "that's your appetizer?!") and entrees followed. We came home and at 11:30 I was sitting alone upstairs watching the countdown. I had bought and installed a webcam for W an an Xmas gift so she could keep in touch with family back home (she wanted one). I came downstairs and saw her using it to talk to OP. Well, that brought the PMA down a bit but when my D's came upstairs and told me excitedly that they were going to show Auntie some of their Xmas gifts, I felt emotionally crushed. It's one of those moments that catch you off guard, here I was sitting upstairs alone in the living room while my family is downstairs WITH OP. That bitch can now be IN my home! Thanks to my gift. I felt so violated. I almost just went to bed. Kids came up, looked at me and said "Daddy, we're so sorry for leaving you alone, are you OK?" I said I was fine, just a little tired. God, they knew! One ran upstairs and put on an old Military Police cap badge I had just given her (I finally found my original today after 15 years!) and proudly said "look daddy, I'm wearing it on my shirt". Both sat down and cuddled with me and told me they loved me. I think they know more than I think about this sitch. I know they realize that Daddy doesn't like Auntie. I don't badmouth her but my mood seems to drop when that bitch come into play. I feel badly that my children somehow felt they had to take care of me. I also know that W and I did something right when we brought these two into the world! W came up and joined us for the countdown. Afterwards, I tucked the kids in and went to bed, without any communication with W. She did not continue the webcam thing. In hindsight, I feel like an ass. Here I just had a wonderful day with my family, bowling and New Years dinner and the bitch got 15 minutes. Who should be feeling badly? I just read a bit from "Choice theory", the book I'm reading, which the therapist says to the patient (not word for word) "which offers you the best chance for what you want, to be angry, hurt and push your spouse away or to control what you can, yourself, and present the best person you can be...which offers the best chance for the future?" Well, makes sense DAMN IT! I will carry on.
