Hi Tom, Get this, she brought me a gift! Is that too friggin much or what! It's just a big block of fudge, she's probably hoping it'll clog my arteries. I've now got myself under control, I'm watching the Giants beat up Washington (I'm an NFC Giant fan too), I helped my D12 figure out her ipod, life is good. I'm choosing not to have any convo's about anything until I've seen the Solution Focused Counsellor I've found. I know I'm coming to the end of my rope and I don't want to bury myself with any dumb ass moves based on my emotion. I honestly have absolutely no idea where to go with this sitch anymore. I figure nothing has changed with her and OP, she's living the good life...mine, well, not as good Thanks for checking in on me....she gave me a gift...unbelievable! Hey, I'm also thinking of becoming a new DB superhero, my call to action will be "PMA and away!", like it? I'll go where no DBer has ever gone before...OK, I'll stop now and go watch the game. Bet your sorry you stopped by now, eh Tom?
Hey Whatisis, first of all you have moved up another notch on my DBer pillar, actually 2 notches. First off the superhero idea, excellent... and secondly because you are a giants fan, extra points there my friend. You know what else, your life is good, you just arent getting a good look at it right now. Your W means absolutely nothing about your life buddy. Take a look back at what you have been doing around here for folks dude, you should take a lot of pride in being able to help folks as much as you have and be going through your sitch which is quite unique. I personally don't know how you do it.
Sofaraway, AT & CM, Thanks so much for the kind words and support, it really does mean a great deal. Today, I really am "PMA Man". It's been amazing. I got up this morning and went for a 3 mile run (body said "stay in bed" but mind said "get your butt up"), came back and suggested to W that we all go out for New Years Eve dinner together, she thought that would be nice so I made arrangements. Next, W said that D9 wanted to go bowling today and I said "I'm up for it, no problem", so off the four of us went and bowled a few games. I was dancing, celebrating and cheering my family on. It was great, W was sitting there looking like something the cat dragged in, can't really speak about her PMA. So, we're just about to head out for our dinner (I'm dressed nicely) and we WILL have a good time, even if I do have to eat meat! Today, I'm on top of the world, who the heck knows why? I will just accept and enjoy this blessing. You take em as you can get em!! Have a great New Years everybody and remember "PMA and away"
I know I got problems back home, but out here I was at least able to reflect on my myself and spend quality time with my little girl. She had a great time out here, and doesn't want to leave. She said that she can visit us in VA and wants to live here in CA. She realizes that the rest of her extended family are here, but having her grandma and grandpa is the main reason for wanting to stay. She woke up sad this morning and knew it would be our "last day" here, but I assured her that we would make more trips soon, especially in the summer.
I'm a bit concerned about our flight back, as Chicago has been delaying their arrivals. I really don't want to spend the night there again, but I am ready if we do. I'm also contemplating spending New Year's eve out with my brothers, and that means being up all night. I think I'll just stay with my mom and my D7, and enjoy ourselves. They'll be other times for me to go out.
Happy New Year's everyone!
~Sol
~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Single Dad, and luvin it! ~ Happiness is a state of mind ~
Thanks for dropping by Sol. Well, ole Whatis almost blew it last night. Dinner was wonderful, W and I shared a lobster (my D9 says "that's your appetizer?!") and entrees followed. We came home and at 11:30 I was sitting alone upstairs watching the countdown. I had bought and installed a webcam for W an an Xmas gift so she could keep in touch with family back home (she wanted one). I came downstairs and saw her using it to talk to OP. Well, that brought the PMA down a bit but when my D's came upstairs and told me excitedly that they were going to show Auntie some of their Xmas gifts, I felt emotionally crushed. It's one of those moments that catch you off guard, here I was sitting upstairs alone in the living room while my family is downstairs WITH OP. That bitch can now be IN my home! Thanks to my gift. I felt so violated. I almost just went to bed. Kids came up, looked at me and said "Daddy, we're so sorry for leaving you alone, are you OK?" I said I was fine, just a little tired. God, they knew! One ran upstairs and put on an old Military Police cap badge I had just given her (I finally found my original today after 15 years!) and proudly said "look daddy, I'm wearing it on my shirt". Both sat down and cuddled with me and told me they loved me. I think they know more than I think about this sitch. I know they realize that Daddy doesn't like Auntie. I don't badmouth her but my mood seems to drop when that bitch come into play. I feel badly that my children somehow felt they had to take care of me. I also know that W and I did something right when we brought these two into the world! W came up and joined us for the countdown. Afterwards, I tucked the kids in and went to bed, without any communication with W. She did not continue the webcam thing. In hindsight, I feel like an ass. Here I just had a wonderful day with my family, bowling and New Years dinner and the bitch got 15 minutes. Who should be feeling badly? I just read a bit from "Choice theory", the book I'm reading, which the therapist says to the patient (not word for word) "which offers you the best chance for what you want, to be angry, hurt and push your spouse away or to control what you can, yourself, and present the best person you can be...which offers the best chance for the future?" Well, makes sense DAMN IT! I will carry on.
Same to you Tom! My New Years Day was not a pleasant one. I spent all night in Emerg with my elderly father. I won't go into specifics but this may take up my time for the next little while. At his age you never know. They're doing tests and time will tell. So I have not abandoned ship here, just a bit pre-occupied and tired from being up the whole night. My parents have been with me through this whole mess with W and I'm proud to say, my Dad is one of my best friends. Think of him for me today, send some healing vibes his way. I'll check in when I can.
I'll go where no DBer has ever gone before...OK, I'll stop now and go watch the game. Bet your sorry you stopped by now, eh Tom? 
