Well, W just left for her little adulterous adventure with OP. I tried not to be hostile when she left but when she called a "goodbye, I'm leaving now" I just sat in the other room and said "bye" and continued looking through my cell phone manual. No hug, no "safe trip" that's all I could do. The thought of her being intimate with OP flashed through my mind and a horrible feeling just washed over me. But, now I must work towards making the next two days good for me and my kids. This time I will not obsessively write her ultimatum letters (that's bad for PMA!) or sit around imagining things that are emotionally upsetting. As I said previously, I've arranged for company tomorrow night and tonight, we'll see. I am in charge of my emotions, it's up to me to take care of me, it's not her job and never really was. I just can't for the life of me imagine how she could possibly see this as acceptable! It boggles my mind, if she wants a new R and a new life then have the guts to move out and do it and let me get on with my healing! Oops, a little slip there already. Oh well, it takes practise. I'll probably come back later tonight to cry on the many shoulders out there that I know are there for me. Thanks folks. Wow, do I hate her at this moment.
