Oh, honey, my heart just ached to read your painful post. I am so sorry for such hurt after a good 2 days. I don't know what I would do in your situation, but I do know that no drastic measures should be acted upon until after the holidays, which has an extra emotional burden attached to them (hard, believe me, i know)!
Hang on my friend, and have a wonderful dinner with your family and merry Christmas.
Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past. See, I am doing a new thing! Is 43:18-19
If it seems slow in coming, wait. It's on its way. It will come right on time. Hab 2:3
