Lily also said she’s trying to reach back into her past and see if there was anything Sage could have done to reverse her mindset oh so long ago.
I’m sure you didn’t care how you made your H feel back then. But it’s not awful. Life’s stresses always seems to have a way of turning our perception in such a way that – my W stated it so well – she had to go into “self-protection mode.” It’s so tragic when a person feels they have to protect him/herself from their spouse.
Going back to your previous post…
Quoting matilda: I hope she comes to her senses before it's "too late." I don't mean that in the sense that you'd betray her -- I know you wouldn't -- but I do know that day by day you are losing some of that "specialness" that you had between you. And I know that words can be difficult to take back. I apparently said the same thing you W said to you, "I wouldn't care if I never had sex again." I don't remember having said that, but my H sure does. And no matter how things have changed, I know he will never forget those words.
So much of that “specialness” is gone. That’s what makes me the saddest. But it would vanish, and I’d forget those words in an heartbeat if things turned around the way it did for you and your H.
He will forget those words, Mattie. Trust me on that one.
And I want to thank you again. And Lily, and everyone who’s given me support, advice, and especially hope. I don’t know if St-Andrew could have held on to his integrity if it weren’t for kind-hearted people like you.
