HELP!!! H now wants to try

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H asked if he could stop on from work to play cards with colleagues. I said it was absolutely fine of course which it is. This is a huge step out of my comfort zone letting him be out with friends such a lot. H has commented how much I have changed in this area so that's good. I just wish he'd step out of his comfort zone a bit. He sees me doing it so much yet it doesn't seem like he'll step out of his at all. Is it really that big a step from kissing me on the lips to a proper kiss?? He opened up a little yesterday as to what the problem is - basically that because SL was so bad before he left he thinks he's forgotten what it can be like so isn't that bothered about it. Is this just a man thing?? because SL was bad for me too but I can remember in graphic detail things from when SL was great - he says he can't. How can he not remember how lovely it used to be just to kiss.

He also must be taking much more note of things than I thought. When we were talking about things progressing he said exactly how many days it had been since he first kissed me on the lips. I have told him I won't try to do anything other than what he allows/wants until he is ready to do things and he said thank you and sounded relieved. Just hope I can manage to stick to it I feel like this is tougher than being separated.