HELP!!! H now wants to try

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H and I have had a BIG talk and I think it will help me feel a little more relaxed about the whole sitch. I know myself I have been very weepy and insecure this last week and H has noticed . However, he has been really lovely about it and last night said he could see I'm struggling with all this and that he wants to help find a solution so I don't feel upset every day. He asked what my biggest worries are and I said that he'd leave again and that he would never want to ML ever again and then it would end anyway because neither of us want that kind of R. He gave me a really big cuddle and a kiss and said that he wouldn't be here trying if he didn't want it to work and that just because he's not ready for ML yet it doesn't mean he doesn't intend for that to happen in the future. He also said he's scared of losing me too otherwise he wouldn't be here and that he feels anxious about if and how much he is ready to do in the intimacy dept. He said he doesn't want to say things to upset me but I told him I'd rather he did than bottle anything up and end up leaving. We both agreed the last week has been difficult due to how I have been feeling and he really genuinely wanted to help me not feel like it. Unfortunately, however, the things I need to stop feeling like it he is not ready to give.

I feel better that he has said he wants it to work out and us be together (he thought this was obvious but I needed to hear it)

I also feel better now he has explained that he does intend for us to resume a SL at some point he's just not ready (I have been frightened that its because he doesn't feel that way towards me whereas just not being ready is different)

One other thing we sorted out was him saying he doesn't know how it is going to end. I have been taking this to mean he might leave or he might stay but what he actually means is that he doesn't know how long things are going to take to get back to normal. I said that to sum up as we both want it to work and we are both trying and it keeps going as well as it has been there isn't any reason it shouldn't work is there? He said "precisely".

So it seems I have a H who is completely committed to trying to make our M work I just need to get rid of this tearful feeling I seem to constantly have inside of me. I think it might be a trust issue. I don't mean trust as in I think he's having an A. I mean trust as in putting my heart in his hands again and trusting he won't break it. Trusting that he isn't going to leave me again. I don't even know where to begin.

Oh and one quick question. Is my D busted in the light of things H has said about wanting it to work???