HELP!!! H now wants to try

[inpain_dup1]

I noticed that the more my H gave, the more i wanted and the more I looked at what I didn't have

I think you're right Cat. H keeps telling me to chill out and act normal but he obvioulsy forgets things aren't normal. I feel like I'm walking around under a cloud of uncertainty the whole time. I'm exstatic if he kisses me or something but it doesn't last long - like you say I want more all the time - I just want an end to the bad time in our M and get onto the good part. (I know this is part of the good part if he decides to stay - I just hate feeling so insecure its like I feel sick the whole time)