I am sorry you are having such a difficult time right now, but it really does take ALOT of patience and ALOT of dieing to self.
What are you doing to keep yourself busy? It just seems like your whole life is centered around what your Husband is doing and maybe if you had a hobby or an outlet, it might take some of the pressure off of him.
What many women do NOT understand, is that sex is not just a physical thing to men, it is also an emotional experience, much like it is for a woman. They can't just turn themselves on if their head isn't right.
The more you dwell on the fact that your Husband is ignorning your needs, the worse it will become in your head.
Right now he has to set the pace. Too much pressure will turn him off. When he is ready to resume intimacy again, you really will be the first to know!
Once my H dropped the D bomb, our sex life came to a crashing halt. There were occasional hugs with a tap on the back (,making me feel like a good puppy) but that was all.
It took 2 years to get to the point I am at. And he still is not home yet. Once you stop making this a personal issue and stop making it the focus of your being, you will feel better.
Continue to work on yourself, make those changes, it takes a long time for those changes to be real, until then you are just white knuckling it. We have all been there, trying to do things in our own strength.
There can be no testimony without a test. I am praying to go through this test and come out the other end with a new and better marriage then before.
