Yes its very hard to be cool isn't it. I have calmed down a little from the last week where I have just seemed to be in a constant panic. After the little chat H had with me and him saying he hasn't moved back in to move back out I feel calmer and its like he said a few weeks is nothing if we are together for the rest of our lives.
He slept in our bed again last night and he wasn't drunk this time!!!! He was still teetering off the edge as far away from me as possible but its a lot closer than the spare room. I made him breakfast in bed today as he made me breakfast yesterday. Its strange because if we do get back together properly I will be kind of grateful to H for doing this as apart from the no ML at the moment everything is great - so much better than before the bomb.
We had a fantastic night last night too. I was thinking maybe the first "date" was a bit of a fluke how we chatted and laughed so much but last night was the same and H was really attentive doing things for me like in the past. I felt like I had my H back! I dropped something in the car and it went under the seat and he jumped out the car straight away to come round and get them for me and opened my cream pot I was struggling with. If things keep on like this I can't see why H would not want to stay!
Me 34
H 33
S2
Together 10yrs
Married 6yrs
Bomb 12th Aug 06
