Well I think me and H made an odd kind of progress today. He cancelled our night out tomorrow and I went a little quiet as I was really looking forward to it. We are now just going to his sisters and I had bought things to go out in. Anyway H sat me down and said he needed to be honest and that me going quiet when things are wrong instead of just telling him annoys him and could I please just be honest and tell him when something is wrong. (Think this is progress from H as he bottled things up before the bomb instead of telling me things I did wrong) I cried and apologised and said I was feeling down today with things and he gave me a big hug and said it was OK and me crying wasn't going to make him bolt or anything. When he got up from his sleep from being on nights I said to him that I didn't want a big conversation but just wanted to clarify that I understood what he had said annoys him. I told him what I thought he meant and he said that was right and as he left the house he said "I haven't moved back in to move back out again I just don't know how long things will take". That kind of sounds to me like he intends staying for good. But then we're not supposed to believe half of what they say are we or is that before they say they want to work on the M?? Oh and when he woke up he called me into "his" room and when I was stood near the bed he reached out and put his hand on my leg. Another good sign I think.

I am cooking a nice meal for when he gets back - fillet steak with his favourite kind of potatoes and spring cabbage which is gorgeous. Not because I'm trying to be romantic or anything I just saw them cooking the cabbage dish on TV the other day and thought it was ages since I'd had it and steak goes great with it! He is going out to our local pub tonight with the friend whose house he stayed in during separation. I am acting totally cool with it to him. I am cool with him going out it just freaks me out a little that it is with that particular friend because I feel like they'll talk about us and he'll change his mind. (which is silly really as his friend told him to try and work it out if he could because he is D with 2 kids so knows what it is like)

Me 34 H 33 S2 Together 10yrs Married 6yrs Bomb 12th Aug 06