HELP!!! H now wants to try

[inpain_dup1]

Spending New Years Eve alone as H is working until 1am at least. He gave me a "this is me reassuring you" kiss on the forehead when he left and said he'd ring to wish me a happy new year. I feel very low. Christmas sucked and now New Years sucks. I was thinking of just getting drunk as H said he'd have a drink with me when he got in but then I'm thinking it might be best if I don't because I'm not good at DB when I'm drunk. I feel like just going to bed and burying my head under the duvet. Wishing people a happy new year when they ring me feels false. Pleeaase God make next year be happy.