I think you've put it perfectly. I too have gone back to worrying and working on us instead of myself. I'm scared every day I am even having thoughts of telling him I don't want to try because I don't think I can be patient enough to wait out this pain. I came close to saying it to him today and I ended up saying a bunch of other things I shouldn't have and now he's gone to work and I'm terrified I've ruined it all just because I can't be patient. I feel like such an idiot. I love him so much and I hate that he doesn't love me. I really feel like I deserve something after all this time and its just not happening and I'm tired of it all. Tired of playing nice and happy and being friends when I want to be lovers.
On your second point yeah Cat is great she is helping a lot right now.
Me 34
H 33
S2
Together 10yrs
Married 6yrs
Bomb 12th Aug 06
