I feel your pain, I really do, we are in a very similar place, and I know it is hard hard hard. Patience is so hard at this point, but I really think it is the best thing we can do, that and work on ourselves. For myself when he decided to try, I think I went back to worrying and working on us, instead of worrying and working on me, and I am having a hard time refocusing. I am scared every day, I know he is too, but that doesn't help.
Isn't Cat great, such good advice, helps me all the time.
Me 41 H 42 DD 11 DS 8 M 18 bomb 8/3/06 separating 9/18/08