HELP!!! H now wants to try

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Wow Cat thanks for that post it is very thoughtful and thought provoking!

We had another chat actually because H came home with a chain on after his first day back at work. He had mentioned a raffle at work where the prize was a chain but it just seemed like too much of a coincidence that he won it so of course my mind jumped all over and I went a little quiet. H asked when these suspicious thoughts were going to stop. I decided to be really brave (or maybe stupid) and tell him that I thought I was having them because he doesn't want to kiss me etc. He sat me down and was really gentle and sweet and explained that until he is sure he is staying he doesn't want to do anything like that because he thinks it would complicate things if things didn't work out. I said I felt we needed to do those things to know it was going to work and he said he doesn't. He said he knows that side of things will be fine once he has decided we are back together. He said he understands I'm in an uncomfortable position because I'm just waiting for him to decide to stay whereas he is "seeing how things are going". He reassured me that just because he's not all over me it doesn't mean things aren't going well. He thinks things are going great but that two and a bit weeks is not enough time to say "yes I'm back for good". He wants me to stop stressing and said that if something I do makes him unhappy he will tell me and won't bottle it up like before the bomb.

It was a great conversation.

The cinema was totally his suggestion so it was a baby step from him wasn't it!!

He even grabbed me to sit me on his knee while he was looking at the computer the other night and he has hugged me before bed every night the past few nights. He is ringing me from work to ask favours and to tell me when he'll be home. Things seem to be going well I think. We made a mess of the cinema - we got the film time wrong and ended up renting a DVD to watch at home instead. I said it was a shame we missed the film and he said we can go watch it another night. So that's future plans he's talking too!

Thanks for the calming thoughts they're great. I have a couple of my own that H has said the last few weeks.

When I've been nervous that maybe he's lied about the W at work he texts:

Where is he?? Here with me in our house

Why would he come back and try if there was someone else??

Hope you had a great Christmas!