The CD thing is still eating me up but I've decided not to say I've peeked and see what happens Christmas Day. H txtd me "night night" last night which cheered me up and this morning he didn't go to bed after his night shift and was going to bring me breakfast in bed until he found out we had no bread left. I've made some today so hopefully he might do that tomorrow! I'm really struggling as H doesn't seem to smile much at me even. I'm worrying about every little thing I do or say in case its wrong. I wish he'd hug me or something to stop me feeling like he's just back for S or Christmas or a new car. If he's back for me why doesn't he hold me at least?? I'm scared he's going to stay in the spare room a few weeks and then turn round and say it isn't working because he can't get his feelings back. I think if he "acted as if" he wanted to hold me or kiss me and just did so he would find his "spark" for me which he has said is missing. Wish I could put this to him. Just want him to lie next to me and hold me.

Last edited by inpain; 12/16/06 09:54 PM.
Me 34 H 33 S2 Together 10yrs Married 6yrs Bomb 12th Aug 06